i believe in me, i make my dreams real

yea!! great fucking day!!

faith is something that you put in friends

there's only so much a person can give until there is nothing left. you give and encourage hoping that it's making a difference. that the one thing you say or send will help that person, brighten their day or outlook, or at least make them smile. you put so much in because you care.

but what happens when the other shoe falls? what happens when you realize things are not what you always thought, or at least always hoped. being optimistic comes with failures and let downs. and what a kick in the ass when your eyes are opened and you realize that you're nothing more than a means to an end. that it was all a sham. an act. ouch. really.

yeah, life is hard and it's not fair. but we all have a choice to allow it to continue.

and what about the golden rule? treat others as you want to be treated. or how about, treat others the way they treated you, during your time of need. see, all it takes is love, empathy and selflessness. but alas, the world is full of people who only care about themselves. and if they don't get what they want in the time they want it, fuck you. regardless of all that's past.

really.

i remeber when.